As I Lay Me Down to Sleep-- A poem to Jesus for my Everett

As I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my boys to keep.
And though my heart does surely ache,
I pray the Lord this pain to take.
So when I wake and see the morn,
The Son does give my heart untorn.
For He alone can take this pain
And give my heart a brief refrain.
For though this world gives harshly to,
His peace and love are constant. True.

But now I me down to sleep,
And for my son, my eyes do weep.
My arms they long to hold him tight,
Yet only Jesus will mend this night.
So for His comfort I will pray,
As life my son has taken away.
His face will ever mark my soul
And life will ever take its toll.
But to my King I lift my voice,
Knowing fully I have a choice.

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I ask the Lord my soul to keep.
For though my soul feels empty sorrow
I know there can be peace tomorrow.
I need only to seek His hand, His face
To feel His love and warm embrace.
His love will catch my every tear,
His hands will calm my every fear.
I need only ask as tears do fall
For Him to hold me and hear my call.

So as I lay me down to sleep,
I beg the Lord a simple peep
Into his lovely heavenly dome
To see my boy in his new home.
To touch his face and kiss his cheek,
Though it strike a tearful leak.
I ask the Lord to hold him dear,
For I long to have him near.
My son, my boy, my little one
Who met his Jesus as life begun.

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I know the Lord my heart will keep.
For if He loves me as He claims,
My life and pain He takes, renames.
And as His own, my sorrow goes
He takes this horror and peace He sows.
Though tears may fall and sadness fill,
The Lord of all does choose to heal.
If only I open my heart and choose
To hear Him, let Him, and not refuse.

Now I lay me down to sleep,
And though my soul will often weep,
Dear Lord I ask, I beg, I pray
Please keep my pain and doubt at bay.
And if I die before I wake,
I ask you for my family's sake
Reveal your love fresh and new
In ways they know from only you.
And have my son there for me
To hold for all of eternity.