Kids Change Everything

Keith asked me to read the Bible through with him in 3 months.  I'm a REALLY slow reader.  I absorb and think, I don't just see words and say them.  I link.  Maybe that's why school is easy for me.  IDK.  Anyway, I have read the Bible through 2 times I remember and maybe more.  And this time I decided to skip Leviticus and I'm skimming Numbers.  Because I've read Leviticus/Numbers twice so far and have yet to really get much out....except to think.... Did there really have to be rules for this?  Seriously?  THAT is incredible perversion.  And, by the way, we figured out that sleeping with someone gets them pregnant, why not just give the lineage?  Why do we care if someone "spilt his seed outside on the ground so he would not make her pregnant"?!?!?  Is that really relevant?  Because I could think of a lot more things I'd like to know that aren't there instead of THAT.  

And then you read Genesis and Exodus. And you think... Is this really the same God I read about in the New Testament? If He is the same always, and these stories are true, this is really God?   ....and I think, would it be possible that he just might send babies to hell?  Because in Genesis he says children are evil at an early age and then in Exodus he says the sins of the parents are on their children.  The same God who says his mercy is overwhelming just because people continue to exist.  Who wiped out infants and two year olds to start fresh.  This is the same God?  The only difference is Jesus...?  But isn't Jesus God? 

{super speed thinking}

((((And is Jesus really his only son because the beginning of Genesis talks about the sons of God walking on earth and we typically call them angels or nephilim and they had sex with women and then had kids--but angels aren't supposed to be called sons of God because they are separately created beings not made in the image of God-- at least we've somehow come up with that line of theology. So, if these "beings" weren't angels but were called the sons of God, who/what were they??? ))) 

{aaaaannnd breathe}

 And suddenly, if you read the Old Testament with anything other than blind faith of its perfection, it seems possible that the horrible could be true.  Not even babies escape His wrath.  Because if he is the same yesterday today and forever and he is  I Am (in the Hebrew conjugation form meaning continuous with no beginning or end, just ...is).....then how could Jesus, who is God, CHANGE everything?  How can the two be the same and yet be so different?

Because Jesus spoke of love.  The Old Testament prophets spoke of war, judgment, & death.  Jesus spoke of self discipline.  The prophets spoke of sacrifices for atonement-- not change.  Jesus spoke of being a beacon of light and life and change.  Jesus wanted the little children to come to him.  In the OT, kids were a means to be richer, something to trade "for something better", and if you were a daughter, you were screwed--literally---by anyone your father (or brothers) thought might be beneficial.  

You mean THAT God is the same as Jesus?

What...like he had a kid and His perspective changed?

Doubtful that its true, ....But I get that.  Kids do change everything.  Hopefully for the best.  And I may never get my confusion and frustration answered about this I Am business and the apparent change of demeanor, but until then (never), I like that thought. 

That a kid who died changed everything for everybody if people would only choose a better way.  I'm good with that made up answer.